Let’s get back to the first conculsion : shaping a model of your soulmate. Completely right,and you’ve better expressed that in the fact that doing it makes people miss a lot of opportunities in terms of experiences.

well, what made me really think is your second resolution : leading a single life and hold back your feelings. I would tell that is a good resolution if you succeed in it. honestly, let me tell when you’re through your studies and just at the start of your carrier, i would be totaly with you choosing such way. Why ? it’s merly because getting through a relationship is very demanding in terms of affective envolvement and engagement, it’s kinda consuming while this energy should be invested in your studies or your starting plans. now, as everything’s relative, it depends on people and their ability to settle those things right and succeed in the rightest arrangement.

Actually, as emotions aren quite unpredictible, you could never tell. you could fix yourself on not loving and fighting against what you fell, most of the time you lose grip and find yourself searching such emotions. It’s just human, chemistry is playing a great role on that….anyway, sometimes when you love you’re in a state like : ‘i couldn’t help it. it’s stronger than me!’. it’s to tell that the matter is not about being single is better than being in couple or the opposite. it’s all about living your life like it is, as the circumstances allow. Live your love, live your life, enduring, suffering, enjoying, laughing are all part of life. so whenever we keep on thinking of how we should live our life, it’s at that time that we miss a lot, it doesn’t matter if it works or not, if we’re hurt or not. fear is also a part of us, it’s quite instructive.
well i guess that I’ve rattled on about a lot as usualy and i’m quite sorry, yet there’re too much to say and all those words are far beyond speaking my mind, anyway i did my best i guess…

thx youness again and hope that you’lle find your real reason

good luck to all !